I like reading local titles when I’m somewhere like New Hampshire. Maybe you do too, so here’s a suggested title for you: Without a Map: A Memoir. I’ve read many memoirs about difficult childhoods, but the teen years could be tough too.
In Without a Map, Meredith Hall takes the reader through the events and feelings when a teen pregnancy changes her life forever. At 16, she’s thrown out of school, cast out by her mother, shunned by friends and neighbors and forced to give up the baby for adoption. It’s 1965 and her sheltered childhood in a New Hampshire village left her unprepared for finding her way in the world.
At the same time as her life falls apart, the 1960s bring changes and these affect her as well. Her feelings of shame and loss complicate her life and she drifts in and out of relationships and lifestyles while trying to find safe ground. I found it interesting how she found her footing and established a fairly normal life yet always felt the betrayal of her family and friends.
When her son reunites with her as a young adult, she agonizes further over her own betrayal of him when she surrendered him for adoption. She has to come to terms now knowing that his childhood was marred by an abusive adoptive father.
Reading her literate account of these events is sometimes painful, but the flow of language draws the reader on as her life unfolds.
Here’s a YouTube trailer for the book.